Happy New Year!

New Year, New Possabilities!

Well, what are the chances of that????

My bestie, Kristi K. invited me to go to some class thingy.

Something about tapping...not sure what but she really wants me to go. And she is emotional, wait! Krisiti K. doesn't get emotional?!?

"Okay!" I will go.
So I went..

tap,tap,tap...

"Even though I am over weight......."

..tap, tap, tap * so this is a class for loosing weight* tap, tap, tap...I love and except myself...* dog gone it people like me**insert chuckle*

tap, tap, tap.

A week passes and it's class time again, ok, I will go again.....

tap,tap,tap, "Today", announced Ruth, the teacher," let's work on self worth. "

She continued, " I was one of eleven children and my father was a school teacher...." *huh, I am one of 10 and my dad is a seminary teacher, huh*

tap, tap, tap".....I am part Italian, my family loves to get together and eat...." *Really? me too, very interesting* tap, tap, tap.."

When I was 8 my grandmother burned to death........" *ok, ok, breath, hold it together, tap, tap, tap...breathe, when I was 7 my grandfather burned to death...hold it together, HOLD IT TOGETHER...BREATHE...DON'T CRY* I lost it.

The Rancher's Wife-

30+ years ago, I could not wait til the first weekend in March. Rodeo day! Lehi Days! I loved to go see the animals, especially the horses.





Once, I stacked poly cans up to about the height of a horse, put on my best jeans, which were my only jeans. Made a saddle out of pillows and tried really hard to pretend I was riding a horse. Even with my imagination, it wasn't that great : /

Spent as much time as I could in any body's pasture, until they kicked me out.



Eleven years ago, I purchased some baby ducks, Inca and Willow. I loved those ducks. I sat in the back yard most evenings and watched them swim in a baby pool, we bought. Loved the ducks! Followed by more ducks and rabbits, not the best animals in an HOA ruled neighborhood.


Love to camp. I spent 2 weeks camping out of a tent and I could have done another two...love to camp.










Went on my honeymoon, in a pop-up...love to camp.







Three years ago, I was junking on a Saturday morning with my sis-in-law, Anne (kindred sister) When I saw a pair of figurines, nothing too special, manufactured line. An old man and women, with simple country attire and some geese.... But it struck a cord in me. I wanted to be that woman. Old and gray, simple clothing, grass under her feet and geese......and a smile on her face. I wanted to be her or like her rather. The thought of me being that place felt right...peaceful.



But I thought it would be impossible, right?





Fast forward three years, we have lost almost all our worldly possession, home, life savings, credit, most of my dignity, self respect. We work very hard for what we had. I have tried to keep my chin up but I am human and almost forty. Starting over is not what I had planned......




Last week we went to visit family in the White Mountains. It was wonderful, I felt alive and good. Came home, to my rental house in an upscale neighborhood and had a nervous breakdown.







Then I thought of those figurines, that's what I wanted to be. Not a suburbanite, shopaholic, go out to lunching woman. What have I been doing???







Five acres and a mu mu...well not really a mu mu. Jeans and a tee shirt, strong and lean from working the land, reaping what I sow, not spinning wheels at the gym.....mid-life crisis.....fresh start???







I could do it in the desert, not my first choice, but I could do it, right???





With my soul mate by my side, who when I thought about it, would be incredible at living the country life. I can't believe I hadn't seen it before. He can't stay inside for a day (no joke), has to work outside our he will go nuts. The strong silent type. So unbelievably handsome (just had to through that in ;).

...maybe, I can dream.....can I make it

real......thoughts.....lots of thoughts.......

sometime, when a door closes, another opens?.......

One major problem....I totally and thoroughly hate country music!!!Blah!! I hate it!.........

but I do love bluegrass!?! I'm in!

Christmas Eve

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to celebrate with the world the birth of Christ. This more than anything is our greatest gift. Especially this year, with the economy crashing. The lush life that I am accustom to is slowly dissolving, yet I have peace. This is because I know my Savior, I know he lives. I know he knows me, I know he loves me. He loves us all.

SNOW!!

Snow+ Sunshine= FUN

Happy Thanksgiving

What a great Thanksgiving. Mostly because it was Swet Pea's 15th birthday. I can't beleive it. She is a great kid, with so many wonderful attributes. It was also my mom's birthday today. I hope I can go up to be just like her. The food and weather were fantastic as well.

been awhile...

moving along on the salon. looks like a December 9th opening, maybe. painting at the Horne home is almost done. and i am going to have a 15 year old daughter before the week is over :/